The down and sad emo have last in me for 2 weeks plus now. I don’t know why suddenly I become like that and I don’t know how to put in words to express it out here. The unhappiness definitely is not came from motherhood, many things here and there I just want to shout out, but many of time I has been turn down. All these things have makes me like so long I didn’t get any satisfaction and not to say I have been pampered with words. No one will take my words and I just go about with a hook on my nose.
Why like that? I don’t know. Many of time, I feel I’m very lonely inside and no one care to ask me and overcome with me. Whenever I need help I just feel like I’m so useless which I can’t handle it myself and always need my parents to help me. Can you imagine 2 persons staying in a house is like stranger and every conversation will almost break out in quarrel. There can be no conversation for many days and happy laugh at this home. I don’t know how long I can get hold the patient in me to get things turn out in a better way. We just couldn’t have a good communication and heart-to-heart talk. It is truly an art in every relationship. 2 persons world can’t even blend into one, is just like we are living alone in the same roof. I don’t know what else I can do, all these while I just cry and cry and cry to release my tension and frustration. I seldom pen down my sad feeling in blog as I don’t want the unhappiness moment being recorded and flash back in future reading.
As the month of many wedding bells ringing, I got a very very bad news from my very very close buddy. She got divorced since early of this year. Almost half a year we didn’t contact each other and the moment I got to know this on the phone, immediately I burst out in tears. My dissatisfactions plus the sad news, thats make me so down in my heart till today. They are a very very good couple used to hold me up in my relationship in the past can end up like this. I just couldn’t accept what she is trying to tell me and I started to imagine her situation almost like how it can happen to me one day if the art fails. She is so tough to overcome the situation, as she said the strength to let go is stronger than the strength to stay behind. She is a lone ranger now concentrate on her career and leaving back a daughter. I just feel so sad for her, she can’t get to see her daughter and cry when she sees her photo and miss her.
I just need more quiet time in me now.
October 25th, 2007 at 5:21 pm
So sorry to hear about ur loneliness. You are not alone, you still have us to support you no matter what. Email or give me a ring, it’s always better to talk it out. Hiding inside is not a healthy solution.
Everyone will have his ups and downs. The down will be over soon. Stay strong and Cheer UP, friend!!
October 25th, 2007 at 11:51 pm
Judy, hang in there. I’m not sure if I am the right person to cheer you up cos you know I’m also kinda emotionally unstable at times. But trust me, things will get better if we think better. IM me if u need someone to talk to.. You always have us who cares….
October 26th, 2007 at 12:16 am
woman, u hang in there. Don’t let bad news influence your thinking. Remember, every relationship has its own story. Yr fren’s marriage didn’t work out, its over. But you should be happy for her because she can start a new life and she will look for someone that can love her more.
For you, you’re not the only one with this prob. I used to call my hub “Housemate” Because we look like we’re just renting a room together.
Wait till things are much better then talk. Try to listen to understand and not listen to argue (you tell him this) and hope everything will be okay. Talk, u guys must talk.
Share yr feelings and dun keep it inside. I was lucky i have Shannon, Yvonne and Mott to stand by me. Otherwise I mental edi.
October 26th, 2007 at 8:45 am
WEI! Gambade… Hang in there ok????
Yeah, just like what Sasha say, don’t let your friend’s case blind your thoughts and views…
And like everyone say, all of us are here… Just msg us anytime… REALLY!!!
October 26th, 2007 at 11:03 am
My dear Jude,
Continue to press on girl!. Relationship is not an art but it requires alot of compromising and communication. I truly agree with your friends.. never let others influence your thoughts. Continue to seek Him for directions. Never lost hope my friend.
Try having more patience while talking to hubs. Just don’t hurt his ego…afterall, they are man.
Remember you’ll always have us to talk to you. Give me a call anytime..
God Bless,
L’abeille
October 29th, 2007 at 8:53 pm
You have lots of friends to support you. Talk to them and you will soon find a solutions. Never give up hope. Think positive.
It is true everyone gone through bad patches in a relationship. Given sometime, I believe you will find the solution. Patience.
October 30th, 2007 at 9:40 pm
my dear friend, I am sorry to hear of your predicament. I hope you are feeling better now. So sorry that I have not been visiting your blog regularly these few days as I as busy. I do understand how you feel living like that with your other half, I had experienced somewhat like that before too. Just hang on there and don’t give up. The days will become much brighter one fine day. Just like mine….
I am always here if you need someone to talk to. As what I did before, I talk to you about. I’m sure you know what I mean ya.