I received these beautiful message from Esther and I’m very much being touch and live up from my past depressing mood after reading it. Here I would like to share it with you too.

When I meditated on the word Guidance,
I kept seeing “dance” at the end of the word.
I remember reading that doing God’s will is a lot like dancing.
When two people try to lead, nothing feels right.
The movement doesn’t flow with the music,
and everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky.
When one person realizes that, and lets the other lead,
both bodies begin to flow with the music.
One gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back
or by pressing Lightly in one direction or another.
It’s as if two become one body, moving beautifully.
The dance takes surrender, willingness,
and attentiveness from one person
and gentle guidance and skill from the other.

My eyes drew back to the word Guidance.
When I saw “G: I thought of God, followed by “u” and “i”.
“God, “u” and “i” dance.”
God, you, and I dance.
As I lowered my head, I became willing to trust
that I would get guidance about my life.
Once again, I became willing to let God lead.
My prayer for you today is that God’s blessings
and mercies be upon you on this day and everyday.
May you abide in God as God
abides in you.
Dance together with God, trusting God to lead
and to guide you through each season of your life.

The down and sad emo have last in me for 2 weeks plus now. I don’t know why suddenly I become like that and I don’t know how to put in words to express it out here. The unhappiness definitely is not came from motherhood, many things here and there I just want to shout out, but many of time I has been turn down. All these things have makes me like so long I didn’t get any satisfaction and not to say I have been pampered with words. No one will take my words and I just go about with a hook on my nose.

Why like that? I don’t know. Many of time, I feel I’m very lonely inside and no one care to ask me and overcome with me. Whenever I need help I just feel like I’m so useless which I can’t handle it myself and always need my parents to help me. Can you imagine 2 persons staying in a house is like stranger and every conversation will almost break out in quarrel. There can be no conversation for many days and happy laugh at this home. I don’t know how long I can get hold the patient in me to get things turn out in a better way. We just couldn’t have a good communication and heart-to-heart talk. It is truly an art in every relationship. 2 persons world can’t even blend into one, is just like we are living alone in the same roof. I don’t know what else I can do, all these while I just cry and cry and cry to release my tension and frustration. I seldom pen down my sad feeling in blog as I don’t want the unhappiness moment being recorded and flash back in future reading.

As the month of many wedding bells ringing, I got a very very bad news from my very very close buddy. She got divorced since early of this year. Almost half a year we didn’t contact each other and the moment I got to know this on the phone, immediately I burst out in tears. My dissatisfactions plus the sad news, thats make me so down in my heart till today. They are a very very good couple used to hold me up in my relationship in the past can end up like this. I just couldn’t accept what she is trying to tell me and I started to imagine her situation almost like how it can happen to me one day if the art fails. She is so tough to overcome the situation, as she said the strength to let go is stronger than the strength to stay behind. She is a lone ranger now concentrate on her career and leaving back a daughter. I just feel so sad for her, she can’t get to see her daughter and cry when she sees her photo and miss her.

I just need more quiet time in me now.

Blogger mummies making another great breakout today. They are being featured in a live program - Wanita Hari Ini from TV3. They are Sasha Tan, Shannon Chong, Chin Nee and Siew Ting (new blogger mum). 3 of them bring their kid along and appeared on the screen too, they are Rachel Huan, QiQi and Siew Ting 3 m.o. newborn. So happy to watch this live show and they shared on why do they blog and what is the fun in blogging. Also, Chin Nee shared most on how the blogger doing paid post and earn income.

2 hosts with blogger mummies


Sasha, Shannon with Rachel

Initially Sasha called me to join and I have verbally agreed to go, I really keen to join the fun and this is a rare chance can be appear on TV. After the decision made, due to my parents not really like me to expose too much (they need to do a short home shooting too) and also to take care many other ppl feeling on what other think. So at the end, for the sake of making many ppl being not comfortable, I rather pull out. At last I have to turn down the appointment. So today I just watch it through the idiot box.

Here are the head shoot from the program of individual with their blog URL.

Chinnee - De’ Moments


Sasha - BlaBlaBla


Shannon Chong - Crumbs in Life


Siew Ting - Magical Milestone

Btw, last month there was an editor called me for this kind of topic interview too through phone and the article was out in Mother & Baby magazine - November issue. I still haven’t check out from the news stand. Will grab one this weekend.

Kiasumum pass this to me and want to know what picture I used for wallpaper..This is the one, Terry boy around 12.5 months old.

Lets see what they have in the mobile wallpaper: -

Vickylow
Beelibaala - blank too?
Angeleyes
slavemom
Life Long Sharing

“This award casts a spotlight on bloggers who are just beginning to draw lotsa attention — the equivalent of a song with a bullet on Billboard’s Top 100 chart. Lotsa good posts. Lotsa good buzz. These bloggers are going places in a hurry.”

Many thanks to L’abeille for recognize me as a Break Out Blogger. My honorable to mark this down, the first award in my new home. This also mark another break through in my blogging journey. Without any of you to visit and continuous support, I won’t have the chance to create such attention here. Hopefully in the coming days I can write more in this new home and do continue back for a visit.

I shall pass this award recognition to J@n!ce Ng.

Today most of my time dedicated to finding a good WP theme. I like this template, but the word <Blog Oh Blog> I want to get rid off la..and put my own blog title. I’m not dare to touch the script in WP…scared it goes hirewired then no one save me. I also downloaded some theme that almost suit my taste. I prefer something simple and easy to read and will go on a 3 columns template here.

Also doubt that, since I’m using WordPress version 2.3, are we suitable to used those template for version 2 or below? I found some template I like, but I don’t like the header picture. Not sure also if that can be change to my own design header…really need help on this now.

Another funny thing I encounter today. For the first post on this blog, I need to go through all comments and approved it. For the second post, all comments are just plain text with no HTML code attached or website URL. It happens that some comments need my authorization, some doesn’t need. I didn’t do any new setting to my comments moderation. Can anyone tell me if you are facing this problem too? and what makes it goes that way?

Sean wants my answer for this long long questions, here you go.

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night? Terry
2. What were you doing at 0800? Just wake up
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? Eating lunch
4. What happened to you in 2006? Started my motherhood life
5. What was the last thing you said out loud? Come here!
6. How many beverages did you have today? One
7. What color is your hairbrush? Blue
8. What was the last thing you paid for? Management fee
9. Where were you last night? Home
10. What color is your front door? Green
11. Where do you keep your change? Purse
12. What’s the weather like today? Sunny, going to rainy
13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor? Vanilla
14. What excites you? Money
15. Do you want to cut your hair? Yes, very soon
16. Are you over the age of 25? What do you think?
17. Do you talk a lot? Yes, sometimes
18. Do you watch the O.C.? I dunno what is O.C.
19. Do you know anyone named Steven? Yes, many
20. Do you make up your own words? Sometime
21. Are you a jealous person? Sometime
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’. Amilia Chin
23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’. Kelvin Wong
24. Who’s the first person on your received call list? Tsui2 (my cousin SIL)
25. What does the last text message you received say? Anna says she change her h/p number.
26. Do you chew on your straw? Nope, tasteless
27. Do you have curly hair? If I perm it
28. Where’s the next place you’re going to? Out the house
29. Who’s the rudest person in your life? Those person speech full of &#!@#$%
30. What was the last thing you ate? Fish, taufu and chicken with rice
31. Will you get married in the future? 1 time enough jor…
32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks? Don’t have any
33. Is there anyone you like right now? Too many
34. When was the last time you did the dishes? This morning
35. Are you currently depressed? Nope
36. Did you cry today? Nope
37. Why did you answer and post this? People tag me, so must do..
38. Tag 5 people who would do this survey. Beelibaala, Hui Sia, Mummy-in-Vain, The Blue Ranger, Jess2princess

Thanks for visiting my new home. Today, Double 10, mark the official launch of my own domain www.judelittle.com. My struggle is end now, I’m so happy that finally I own my home. In just within 24 hours, I got my domain registered and blog host up in the space. What my domain name means?

jude= in short for Judy
little = this blog is a little part of me

I’m yet to explore this WP platform, there are many things to play around and I got to get use to blog from here now. For Blogspot, I will still blog there, as I need to keep my paid post job over there and I hope this blog will still keep as clean as it is for the time being. May be if one day no advertiser like posties to used Blogspot, then this place will be take over for everything. This new home will update with posts periodically.

I need to make a lot of adjustment here. Change the template and get all the widget place at the sidebar. You may not find many posts by this year. Hopefully by 1st January 2008 can roll out everything nicely and I’ll re-invite you again to look at the changes of this home.

Here, I would like to thanks benghan for giving this blog hosting for FREE. He did all the set up for me and teach me how to use. All I need to do is just get my domain registered and my blog is up here nicely. I took my domain registration from SapiensBryan which is RM38/year. It is the most economic way for a start. Now got to manage 2 sites..arrghh..must speed up…